Adele - Rolling In The Deep

to those who broken-hearted...mari kita croackey!!!!


"Rolling In The Deep"

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship there
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.

Flip My Boudoir

Painted & Stenciled by Amy & Aisah

Our Boudoir

My fav animals - Kawda. Bought those from Miri, not Ikea..

Novel ya belum abis dibaca until today..

Lamak dah TMN teringin gilak mok post these pics. It happens to be one of my fav album created by my beloved sister, Amy. Kelaklah intronya sikit. Banyak gambar2 diambiknya happened to be my fav. Kelak kawen sik payah carik jurugambar agik. Suruh jaknya..senang crita jimat duit...hui hui....ok, lemme share a bit about these pics.

Please Flip ma room

FYI, three of us (adik-beradikle) sharing the boudoir. Actually there are 2 extra rooms. But the other room was turned into our wardrobe (yang sik brapa menjadik) connecting the lavatory, and there is one small rectangular room, which turned into our store sementara. So, for the time being, sharing is caring lor. That room was used to be very dark with a hint of 70s & 80s style. Its our year of birth anyway. Our wooden ceiling and walls are plain brown colour. Kadang-kadang mun gurin atas katil, nanggar ceiling, mcm kedak rasa dalam yacht ada juak. No offence, nang kmk rasa mcm ya kali mun tido dalam yacht (terpengaruh drama omputeh lam tv). Our floor was carpeted in light green. Very prone to debu dan mites. So, one particular day, my dad decided to change our floor. from carpet to wooden floor. Apalagi, kmkorg melompat keriangan bak kanak-kanak ribena. Yippie. Thanks n luv u dad! So, dari cyalah bermula idea TMN adik beradik mok mentransformasikan bilit tido. So, first, we bermesyuarah, and then agreed that the wall and the ceiling cat kaler putih. Glowing white...yesss...blink-blink putih gitu. We bought 2 big cans of paint and started our project mengecat. It takes 3 days for that room to be perfectly painted in glowing white. Then, kedong ada lebihan cat tek, so we paint meja mekap, meja tv, katil and our antique laundry chest.

Extras

Then, dah siap mengecat semua, my sister came with this idea of having meja solek, meja tv to be stenciled. So berkareh driving ke Techno-graphic in Tabuan Jaya just to buy stencil and paint. Since I'm so in love with rose and red (as in colour), so the theme would be red country roses. So, menjadi juaklah projek stencil kmkorg. Then, we arrange the furniture and voila! our boudoir revamped and flipped!

Glad we managed to flip our room. There are more projects to come. Couldn't wait for that 2 extra rooms to be flipped by us!=)

REVIVAL

Hello guys....

It has been a while (yeler tuh) and now I'm ready to blog again. Thanks to my fren who introduces numbers of interesting blogs which makes me wanna go blogging again! :). Well...I guess my last post was not so interesting..quite dry and bit melancholic. To tell u guys the truth, I was having a real hard time way back in 2009. Alhamdulillah, rezeki ada di mana-mana...soon after I tendered my resignation, I'm working in my dad's fren co as a PA cum HRMD Manager (adaka cem tuh). But my presence there did not lasts long. Again, my working attitude, value and principle did not match the company completely? It's like oil and water. Again and again..rezeki datang lagi. My former boss (who becomes presence at the moment :)) called me and asked me whether Im interested to work back in Porto Seres. Munlah jodoh kedak ya juak kan best.indok ati...tengah time2 blogging tok, suddenly I receive a phone call from someone, asking me to come back to him.."Hello Duh young, are u interested to be my girlfren again and later be my wife for better or worse blah blah blah?"...YeaaAAhhhRRRRittteee....in your dreams,TMN...in your dreams. Ok, enuff of iklan sampingan....back to blog please. ohkay. Where was I? my former boss not so former anymore...ohkay. So, berlakulah nego menego gaji perks segala, asking for my parents' opinions...so on 22.11.2010, I took another giant leap to metrobelacan and then the rest - history.

Metrobelacan is sligthly improving. There's San Fran's, Sushi Kings and coming soon = Secret Recipe! Yippie....but I'm still praying hard that for McD to open its kiosk here in Metrobelacan. I will definitely be one of their loyal customer! So, what I learn from this experience : Don't ever burn your bridge, you will never know it's the bridge which leads your to a better destiny...InsyaAllah....cewaahhh..memandey ajak bunyik TMN bermain kata-kata....huhu...So far works wise ok. office wise ok and pipel also ok.....met new faces and frens....reunioned with former not so former anymore colleagues, bosses, frens & acquaintances...now with new div and major b, hope everything turn out just fine for me...Aminn.......

Au Revoir!

Yesterday was an official notification that TMN is resigning from her office. It has been one(1) year plus TMN struggled herself there, shouldering simple but yet complicated responsibilities. That particular period of time enough for TMN to sense that "something is wrong somewhere". When they asked TMN on what was the main reason of her leaving the office in such short period of time, TMN gave typical answer of which you can easily find at job's website : better offer / salary. In fact, that was not actually the main reason. Main reason was this :- Afraid that her future will be hold at stake, appreciating the danger that she will encounter should she proactively and fearlessly fighting for something which she honestly believe to be unprofessional and unethical. She was the right candidate that does not fit in such office culture. It's like fitting the round cube into the square one. Wow, very contradictory statement.

TMN loves TMN's job so much, fully dedicated to it. Hence, there are some minor (not major) improvement on the system during TMN's tenure in that office. There will definitely be a major one, should they listen to TMN advise : restructuring the jd as the present one is very-very impractical. The system in-use no longer capable of holding the expansion of the business. Just imagine, having from less than 10 people works in there from more than 100 plus at present. It's like having one 20 watt bulb to light on the whole mansion, 15kv generator to be utilised for one big town. Ok, enough of using metaphore!

Restructuring was a simple one, does not need any capital invested in it at all. Some portion of works to be dispersed to the right department. In other words, the rightful owner. Some unnecessary and non-value added works to TMN to be transferred to those who can make it valuable and necessary. Again, this not involved creating a new position, it is just simply an act of filling in what was left vacant.

Guess what TMN gets when this proposal been brought to the top management? destructive criticisms!

Did TMN mention "proactively and fearlessly fighting for something which she honestly believe to be unprofessional and unethical" ? Wish TMN could write a full story out of it. There is a reason why TMN doesn't want to share the whole piece of cake in here. Enough to say it involves some process of which capable to be exposed with some risks and implication.

The rest, TMN leaves the reader to ponder.

TMN now is ready to move forward and "jadikan pengalaman ini sebagai sebuah kisah klasik".

Last but not least, one siginificant question posed by someone during exit interview yesterday : " Y such in a hurry? are you resigning because of you are under duress?".

Haha. Enough said.

Revival

Hello guys...

It has been ages since my last entry was somewhere in 2008, where I have all of my sweet time at Porto Seres, writing, blogging, posting any topics that I feel I would like to share with all of you.

I guess, from now on I will definitely have time to blog again.

There are times when I really feel that I would like to revive my old fav pasttimes - writing a story. I have been writing short stories since I was 9 years old and the my last time was smwhere in 1996/1997. Still remember those times, where I sought for my friends' advice to do proof reading on my short story.

I could not recall what was the main reason of me stopping myself from continue writing a story. Perhaps, lots of things have been revolving around me like crazy, unconsciously fading my interest and passion away. Two of my other friends have launched themselves as part-time writer (Both are sisters). One of them even had her play shown in theater, KL last year. This, once again did perk me up from my mundane routine in my everyday life.

Maybe I should give myself one more chance again.

Reviving this blog for a starter.

Not bad huh?

2009!!

Hello everybody..

Apa kabar sumer. Hopefully TMNS masih ada org yg maca. Udah lamak rasanya tidak memblog since TMN posted lirik lagu pagi yang gelap yg memberi seribu makna buat TMn dan juga warga portos. Huhu. Mcm sik cayak that today is 19th day of Jan 2009!!! wah...pejam celik pejam celik udah 2009 koh. Hidup ini mesti diteruskan selagi daya..insyaAllah..

Sementara TMN ada mood mok update blog tok, TMN just want to recall back apa yang telah berlaku sepanjang akhir bulan disember 2008...

Bye-Bye Porto, Hello Telko

Yup, TMN sik nyangka' that 2008 is gonna be TMN empun final year (mcm bunyik TMN agik di Uni jak bunyik...pandey ada final year indah) di Porto dan juga Metrobelacan. Things happened so quickly, faster than the blink of the eye bak kata org buley...cewahh... TMN ingat lagi that particular day, while TMN bisin2 di dalam bilit ECL, ngrepak coz banyak kerja ditikam ngannya, suddenly TMN pray and hope that she got another job smwhere else, away from Portos. Menar....tok depan rezki (ada aik teh 350 ml depan TMN kinek tok). Kak ya ndak, less than 1 minute after that thought zapped into TMN's mind, suddenly her HP ringing....duhal ada org nanyak ngan TMN whether TMN interested mok kerja di Telko. TMN terkezut besar coz sik nyangka' wish nya ya boleh dijawab secepat itu (MasyaAllah..hehehe). So, that HP ringing moment telah membawa kesan yang besar ke atas life TMN yang sungguh routine dan monotonous di Porto itu. Just that one ring of her phone, the rest is history...cewahhh...

Hello Telko dan Meow-Meow

To cut the long story short, TMN pun buatlah persiapan2 impromptu yg ada coz this time TMN meme sik mok melepaskan pluang to take that job yg mana opisnya 3 mins drive jak dari rumah. Luckily rami juak org sudi membantu TMN di waktu itu yg mana TMN sik membuat persiapan untuk pulai meow-meow for good. Thanks to all of you!!! you know who you are..GBU! :-)

Tempat keja baru so far ok...the fact is tempat baru TMN keja tok ada kebaikan dan ada keburukan lah..mun mok diberik score, Porto dan Telko get even kata org....sekda yang score lebih. But one thing yg TMN notice was that TMN save banyak duit. Like Aaron Aziz TMN ya ndak...mun dolok, sewaktu di Metrobelacan, TMN will spend about rm30 (mun sik turun rah parlez-vouz nun) up to rm60 (mun turun) a week to isik the minyak. But this time, TMN if sik pegi mana-mana..just rumah straight to the opis, to and fro), TMN will spend only RM30 for 2 weeks.....TMN so happy!!! Lagipun, mun mok pergi soping ka or kemana-mana, selalu makey kereta2 lain. Aaron udah jarang di embak bersoping kinek tok.Hehe. part makan plak...let say, mun dolok sehari TMN will spend on average RM5 sehari to lunching..so 5 hari udah rm25 ndak, lebih kurang ( itupun belum dicampor ngan makan roti caney rah camel trupi nun). Whereas TMN sitok jarang kuar duit to lunching coz lunch selalu pulai rumah or else sister will ngembak makan luar). TMN oni makan luar if letsay ada miting yg pjg berjela that TMN sekda masa agik mok pulai rumah....save lagi lah. 

So pendek kata, banyak cost-savingslah TMN sitok. One more thing....cuti pun udah sik payah mok allocate khas untuk pulai kuch2....so..cuti boleh fully utilise ngan trabbeling ke tempat lain.

Though TMN mendapat banyak manfaat (MasyaAllah) dari kesan berhijrah tok, of course TMN misses her kawan sepalak ngannya di porto nun. Miss juak ngan Lin Kichi yg selalu menjadi pendengar dan peneman jalan yg setia(though kinek tok udah sik dpt agik mcm dolok coz org udah ada rumah dan tanggak dirik empun bah). Miss juak ngan knur yang meme ccm yang cemerlang. gemilang dan terbilang. Miss juak ngan ECOM tempat bersadu dan kongsi duit membangku..huhu..miss juak ngan sec yg selalu kmk nanyak ngan nya cney tuju docs yg di curik tikuih..hehe...miss juak ngan kich jatey yg pendiam banget but kerja tip top cepat maha dewa brahmin..pokok pangkalnya (sik cukup blog tok mok nulis nama sumer org kelak)...me miss the geng environment nun la.....di telko tok kmk buk nya di peringkat saringan geng bah...aok..mok disaring..sik dpt di ambik terus..itulah pey-el TMN.....ya lah TMN malar dicop sombong.TMN sebenarnya pemalu (errr..mesti ada org kembang aik lioq kak tok kelak) orgnyer and TMN sik pandey mok geng sumer mcm ya ajak. Sapa yg TMN rasa selesa, nya lah jadi geng.

Udahlah agik TMN berceloteh...lejuk kitakorg kelak..anyway..anyhows....

Hidup perlu diteruskan.......betul tak???

Pagi Yang Gelap

Sempena musim tengujuh tok ndak, TMN ingin dedicate sebuah lagu dari kumpulan ujan kepada warga porto seres. Sila amati bait2 lirik lagu ini, terutamanya yang berkaler kuning & bold ini....

Pagi Yang Gelap - Hujan

Lebih tua dariku

Harap sabar menunggu

Kepulanganmu ku tunggu

Bukan maksudku mendiam

Tiada niat menyimpan dendam

Hakikatnya rindu yang mendalam

Jalan ini kan membantu

Hari esok siapa yang tahu

Kata ibu dengar sahaja

Cerita hanya kita berdua

(Chorus)
Pagi yang gelap

Kini sudah terang

Aku adikmu

Dan engkau abang

Aku amat merindui kamu

Pagi yang gelap

Kini sudah terang

Aku adikmu

Dan engkau abang

Inginku ulang ke masa dulu

Tak akan putus hubungan kita

Tarik nafas lega kerna aku tak apa-apa

Jalan ini kan membantu

Hari esok siapa yang tahu

Kata ibu dengar sahaja

Cerita hanya kita berdua

(Chorus)